I Dont Want To Love You

i can still see that day
it plays over and over in my head
i can still hear those words
they ring in my ears

everytime i close my eyes
i see your glistening smile
your unfathomable green eyes
and your adorable big nose

some days i wish we never ended
i wish it was you holding me
that i was kissing your lips
i wish you were still my whole world

but these thoughts are always bombarded with pain
the nightmares rush in to make me remember

i remeber the nights i was alone
the nights i cried myself to sleep
the times i spent tucked up and hiding
the bruises on my arms

i cant let you in
i cant trust you
i cant beleive your lies
i cant love you

i dont want to love you