I Jumpedthe tears roll down my cheeksim so weaki start to drift to my happy placemy secret escapeout of my pocket falls a razor bladeslowly blood starts to stainim told its wrongbut what is done cannot be undone"he doesnt want me"i start start to swoon and fall to my knees"his desire is dedicated to her"the world starts to blur"he doesnt care"i start to climb up the stairsalcohol stings my breatheverything will go away...with my deathhe wont have to feel guiltyhe never really loved mei was told this isnt the answerbut when im up there i will feel like a ballet dancerif i cannot have himi refuse to liveonce
LIE TO MEi need himi needa distractionsomething to takemy mind awayfrom all this painhelp mefix melove methats all i aski wantto bewantedi cravehis attentioni fantasizeabout hisarms around metake me backi havelearned my lessoni understandthe consequensesofthe choicesi makei promisei wont takeyou for grantedi wont expectyou to love meno matter whatthe curcumstancescare for mewant mehelp mefix memy heart is hurtlove mefor meyou dont knowhow muchi need youyou dont understandhow muchi miss youyou dont seehow much i love youyou dont recognizehow muchi want y
Regret, Insecurity, Weaknessfreedom is nothing but missing you.lonely is nothing but wanting you.goodbye is nothing but a lie.sorry is nothing but pleading.leaving is nothing but pride.lieing is nothing but insecurity.sleep is nothing but hiding.breaking down is nothing but weakness.breaking up is nothing but dignity.happiness is nothing but pretend.crying is nothing but needing you.regret is nothing but wishing you'd forgive me.smiling is nothing but a disguise.hope is nothing but loving you.